When do I walk, when do I crawl

The Path usually seems clear to me.

Do what is right. Walk a striaght line.

Trust and give freely.

At this very moment the path is full of obsticles that I must overcome.

I'm not sure that I am strong enough to reach the end of the path without

stepping on and hurting the people that I love to get there. While I help somepeople down the path others drag me down.

I hope we all can make it to the end of the road without falling and unable to get back up. I feel at this moment I am just able to crawl down the path of life. Lord give me the strength I need to get there and make sure everyone else is in tow.

Random Acts of Kindness

I recently have come into a whirl wind of Random Acts of Kindness!
It is amazing how these little acts
of kindness can make one feel. The other day I got a handful of roses from a complete stranger, the funny thing is it just happened to be my birthday. This is something they did not know. At my age you don't like to go around announcing that! But ever since then I have noticed I seem to be the recipient of small acts of kindness everywhere I go. Maybe this is not something new but I just have become more attuned to. I consider these acts a pure gift of human kindness. It reminds me in my busy life.... that people have a beautiful nature about them. It also makes me want to go out and commit these same good acts. They don't have to be large it can be something quite small.... letting someone in, in a high traffic area....a friendly smile... a polite comment. Helping someone with a task even if you don't like to do it yourself. Here is the thing to keep in mind though..... it's never for the thankfulness of the recipient maybe they will not be aware of the gestures. Just do it to be nice, thoughtful and loving of others. Maybe...just maybe, what comes around goes around!

Oh So Busy Summer

I have been oh so busy at work this summer putting in way to many hours at work. Under staffed, the usual problem. But I still found some time to take walks (not as often as I like) Bike rides and Wind Surfing on the ol Grand Lake. I tried out for a play, a murder mystery! I love my character! I'm old and mean and I dislike everything.......then I get killed before act two. It's perfect. Hopefully it will leave me some spare time it try something new. I would like to try my hand at sculpture yet this summer/fall. And I still am working on writing that play. Of course that leaves me with no time to sleep... ha ha. My favorite thing this summer was a family reunion. We through a Hoe Down for the family, about 100 of our favorite relatives. It's amaizing how we don't keep in touch with family. I don't know my cousin's children at all! If it wasn't for the fact that they all look like their parents I wouldn't know them in a croud. But we are trying to bring the family closer by having more get togethers. Next year the plan is a Luau! Anybody have any easy good tropical recipes?

Well I better get on with my summer.... its moving to quickly and I've got more to accomplish! But unfortunately it will have to cont. after work. Upside - it is FRIDAY!!!

Memories of yesterday make me smile today.
It's funny I have this box of memories - old pictures, letters and well..... things. A while ago I read a friends blog of how they wish they had some items that they used to doodle on letters and such. So for their birthday I scanned in some of those from this box. I sent them via e-mail. I don't know if my effort was appreciated or not but it made me open this box full of memories.

You have to understand this box has been with me since childhood. It's crazy some of the things I felt were important enough for me to keep. I guess the crazy thing is I still can't bring myself to get rid of any of it. When I dragged it out for the e-mail that day, I just quickly went through found some items that I thought would be fun to send. But when I was putting the items back in the box I remember thinking, wow this stuff is old and silly to keep. I haven't looked at it in over a million years! It didn't seem that important to me anymore. Then I started really looking through it. It was at that point I realized this box was important as those same silly items, pictures, letters and drawings is part of my past. All these people helped create the person I am today. There are letters and pictures of people in that box that I forgot all about and now I still have something to remind me. I don't want to forget them, they are a part of me, a part of who I am. They are worth the space in my closet as well the space in my heart.

REMBER YOUR PAST, CHERISH THE PRESENT, CREATE YOUR FUTURE WITH LOVE

OUT OF REACH

Have you ever wanted to help someone but just was not

able to. A friend who needs you but who is just out of

reach. You hear them calling... they are reaching too.

You reach to help them...but you are stopped, you are

not family. They say help others in need... but the same people put a wall up. Watch from a distance. But yet I hear you calling. My heart is heavy. What more can I do. Yet I want to be there for you. You are family, maybe not by blood, but none the less, family by my heart.

All signs are telling me to stop.

When I created this picture I thought it was funny. All the stop signs. When I was done with the finishing touches the first time I really looked at it I felt that it represented my conversations. It seems these days I worry more than I ever did in my life. It's my kids...I feel that all I do is lecture them. Don't do drugs. Don't have sex. Don't drink. Treat people with respect.... The list feels ever ending. Yes I've said these same things since they were old enough to understand each issue. But now they are late teens I feel more pressure to make them see. I'm know they both have very good morals. They do care about others. My biggest wish is that they pass these same morals, I've tried to instill in them on to their children, some day (in the distant, very distant future!) But untill then or when they move out from under my roof, I will continue to talk, lecture and yes nag (as they probably would word it). But for now I will continue to tell them to stop. And hopefully if I say it enough times, one of those warning just might be heard.

If you were to die today would your life be complete?

This question was asked via an e-mail. If you were to die today would your life be complete. How could this ever be answered? This question came the same day as I received the call that my sisters husband had passed away. A few years ago she told us that when he dies she would not want to live anymore. They had no children and live across the country far away from all family. I hope she finds that her life is not yet complete. We all have people we need to tell that we love, friends still need help, loved ones need hugs and god still needs praised. Life starts over each day Make the day count. Time stands still for no one.